July: Summer Lovin’

The truth is, I forgot. 

I confirmed plans for the 10th of July thinking it was a while from now. But it was yesterday. 

I think I hit the pause button a few weeks back.    

Thoughts About Pleasure:

In releasing my guilt, I give myself permission to savor this bliss. 

They say nothing lasts forever, we shall not cling to desires, and contentment is the key to balance. 

But it’s hot, days are nicer, and so wonderfully long. 

I crave dancing like the flame of the late night candle in my patio. 

I have dropped the ball, forgotten, and spaced out harder than I have in months this past week. I’m feeling an unusual sense of jealousy for the kids who have relinquished the responsibility of school and embraced summer. 

I’m not tossing papers to the wind as I run down an imaginary school hallway, but I am definitely clearer on how this month will be spent.

Nothing big or grand, but everyday, I am doing something pleasurable.  Even if it’s 10 minutes of sunbathing/ napping in the sand. 

I work hard. You work hard. We all work so hard. 

It’s okay if nothing gets posted this week on social media, it’s okay if it takes me a little longer to get the laundry folded, it’s okay if I water plants on a Monday instead of Sunday because I forgot, and it’s okay to give yourself the slack you need to make room to experience anything other than work, overly strict wellness, or duties. 

If a kid is currently frying their brains in front of netflix on a boring summer afternoon, me too for at least a little bit in between clients.

There is always the next thing, the more, the unfinished, and not yet started. There will always be that. Winter, Spring, Summer, and Fall. 

Why not choose the months with better weather to enjoy some playful pleasures. 

I understand It’s cliche, but who cares. It’s summer, let’s play.