August is Here

“If you want something different, you need to do something different.”

I’ve always been a bit anxious, but I noticed it getting truly uncomfortable these last few months? I can’t remember when it started to hurt.

I do yoga, I teach breathing techniques, I gave myself massages and cupping and reached out to fellow therapists for more body work. I go to therapy regularly. Nothing was working.  

Healing is responsibility in prettier text, and my anxiety had started to feel like chaotic scribbles I couldn’t understand.

But then I saw a pattern.

Everyday I got on my phone and it took me far too long to get off. I was captivated by everything happening anywhere else but here. And here is nice, but everything has the context of ”better” online. 

The anxiety was becoming physically painful, as if I could barely fit inside my own body, so I tried something different.

I changed the moves around and I started to unravel.

I've been trying to move different, literally and figuratively. I finally deleted my personal Instagram and started to honor the time limits set on my phone. The difference is astounding my friends. I also started taking dances classes which have ignited such a child like joy.

These summer days, I’m playing with exploring what’s here and so far it feels far better already.  

So if you want to find me, I’ll be here dancing. There’s no where else I’d rather be.